EMPTY PROMISES

Last Friday i called her to ask whether does she wants to have lunch with Esther, KC and i.. But i did not tell her where.. She just says that she's busy so she is going to have a quick one in our cafeteria.. But when we went to Serena, she's there... With her Accounts friends.. So i went up to her and sarcastically said that i did not know that Serena has already changed and became our cafeteria.. She then tried to explain and of course, why should i listen.. And i went off.. She is pissed off about it... Until today..

I always thought that she will never change after she has been transferred to Accounts Department.. But everyone asks me not to be so sure.. Well, it's true... She has changed a lot..

When she was in Accounts Department the first week, she came and promised not just me, but Esther, KC and Poon that she will assign a lunch date with us at least once a week... But that did not happen...

She promised to take Esther and i to the Korean home cook restaurant but until today, no freaking news..

She always mingle around with the Accounts team and when she saw us passing by, we are all translucent...

Curse very frequently..

Always talks dirty jokes..

The main priority always goes to Accounts Department first.. Everything has to be quick, new, super clean, spotless, flawless, etc...

I just cannot take it anymore with her empty promises and change of character...

RUNAWAY SUE

Have been feeling uncomfortable the whole day all thanks to my soar throat and cough...

I don't get sick easily... But when i am really sick, i really can't concentrate on what i am or should be doing... For instance like today... Since this morning i have no mood to work already... I just want to lay on my bed and rest... But i couldn't because Ahmad needs to go on MC and my sis @ work, Esther is on vacation with her hubby...

Usually when i am in the office, i listen to all my song collections that are being saved in Grooveshark (thank you for recommending hubby)... And today, i suddenly felt like listening to Runaway Sue... I got a little emotional while listening to it... Throughout the whole song, i have been thinking about the fun and happy times that i have had with Mr Lau when he and his friends were doing their rehearsals for their mini concert in 1992... I remembered that he brought me to their rehearsals every weekend.... I even made a few friends and learned a little bit of ballet (just messing around, really)... Remembered that i shared a packet of char siew / siew yuk rice with him... I was so naughty back then... I asked him to feed me while i was running here and there-playing the piano, drums, percussion, etc... Just anything that i could get my hands on.... I had also remembered he looked so proud when he was introducing me as his daughter during my first time meeting up his friends...

Thinking about more of those moments really made me feel sour inside... Then slowly, silly things started to come to my mind... Questions to be exact... Example, "How will i feel if he got really sick and being hospitalized?? What should i do?? What if he dies?? Will i ever forgive him???"

There are a lot of times where i really wish that i could speak to him like how we used to.... But it's just too difficult for me...

RECENTLY

RECENTLY, everything at home seems peaceful (at the moment)... I don't mean to sound negative... But when you think about when a person has taken away your freedom to hang out with your friends (in an unwilling manner), how would you feel... Sometimes i would think whether is hubby feeling the same way because he has not been hanging out with his friends for quite some time now (even futsal)... Actually it's not because i don't let him hang out with his friends... It's just that i'm very scared that something bad might happen to him while he is driving to the destination or home... And of course (i won't deny), i feel insecure when he is not around me... At any time, the word "INSECURITY" will pop out of my mind out of nowhere... It's not just because he has lied to me before when we were on practical training, but it's also because i am very scared of karma... I have cheated on my previous boyfriends and i just hate the phrase "what goes around comes around"...

But on the brighter side, hubby and i have been very happy and been very playful no matter where we go... We kept making each other laugh and tickling each other with our words and actions... Lovin' it... :) *2 thumbs up*

OCEAN MONKEYS PROJECT - DEAD

This morning I noticed that there is nothing in my tank already (other than the dead bodies).. But anyhow, i am not giving up... I'll leave it up to dry and then refill the tank... And we'll see whether does it really reborn...

FYI, it has been more than 30 days already... So it did not disappoint me... :)

GAMBATEH!!!!

DAVID FOSTER AND FRIENDS

Last night on our way to have dinner at our favourite Korean restaurant (Jung Won), hubby's backside itchy and called Lite and Easy to play the guessing game (Who Am 'I')... And he just tucked his phone to me and ask me to answer on his behalf... I was like "WTH!!!"... I kept pushing his phone back to him but he was giving me the best excuse ever - i am driving!!! And while we were pushing the phone back at each other, Rex (the DJ) picked up.... So i have no choice but to give him my details and answered the question... I was very pissed off during then... But after knowing what I have won, i can't help but to feel SUPER HAPPY!!!! I have always wanted it... Honestly I wanted to buy the DVD... But it's expensive... So I think double CD is just as good... Hehehehehe... :)

Thank you baby... Mmmuakkksss... Mmmuakkksss...

OCEAN MONKEYS PROJECT - DAY 28

As of this morning, there are only 4 left... T-T