FRUSTRATION

I was kind of having a nice weekend.. Considered that i get to take Janice and mom out for a late night movie on Saturday... But last night, was a horrible one... I really am very frustrated and tired of my mother's attitude and behaviour already... I had enough...

When Janice, hubby and i got home last night, the house was very quiet and cold... But we're getting used to it now... We got home, did what we should, and in the end, i was on the couch stitching, Janice on her lappy and hubby (as always) reading newspaper... Then, Janice went to the ktichen to wash her hands or something... She was shouting from the kitchen asking why is the kitchen basin's handle is gone.. Mom says that she was trying to fix it but then the whoel thing fell off... She was looking for a substitude in the house but she has forgotten where she has placed it.. So we have to tolerate it for a while... And other than that, she was complaining how she had given up on the old man and this and that in front of Janice... Janice got tired of her same old issues and complains everyday, and walked away... Less than 20 mins after we got home, that old man went out... To where, nobody knows... Recently he would just leave the house without saying a word... Upgraded version of him... Previously he would inform everyone that he is going out... Maybe he knows that we do not care about him anymore...

But later that night, my mother informed us (again!!!) not to switch on the balcony lights before we go to bed... I yelled at her... Saying that both Janice and i know what to do... She does not have to remind us again and again..... You have to forgive us for being rude to my mother.. It is because other than shouting at her to make her stop this nuisance, there is nothing else we could ever do.... She keeps reminding us EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT the same thing over and over again... And on top of that, she also adds a few complains about that man.... If she had not accept him back the other day, then nothing like this will ever happen...... She will not be this frustrated and unhappy... She would have got her freedom back....

I really do not understand why sometimes she could be this shallow and sometimes she could be so smart.... I guess this is what happens when you are torn between your children's happiness or your own's...

SOMETHING CRAZY!!!

This morning i was half asleep in the office.. And when i was checking my emails (as i usually do every morning), i found that i have CC-ed to the wrong person.. The email was sent by Miss A.. But i accidentally CC it to Miss B.. So i think Miss B is quite pissed off with me right now.. Or even hate me...

I was forced to say so because Mr C called me up yesterday evening asking about why Miss B sent an email to him to confirm a couple of liqour orders.. Then i keep telling him that maybe Miss B just wants to double confirm on the order or to let him know that htere is such order being made... Then at the end of the whole conversation, i realise that what he is trying to convey is, "You guys got no communication ge meh?".. This question has been hanging around for quite some time.. And i do feel that we really do not have good communication skill amongst ourselves.. Hy.. What to do.. We tried to change the situation before, but it did not work..

So because of this question (which really upset me), i replied Miss A's email and bashed Miss B... And at the end, Miss B found out because i accidentally CC-ed to her... I felt sorry at first... And wanted to apologise... But when i come to think of it, Nah!!! ... Because i really feel that she do not communicate with me well... She do not come forward to ask me about anything.. She just likes to ask some other people or the end user themselves... Which apparently, she will get bashed too... Hy... Really difficult to work here...

Someone please save me.... T-T