Today is my mom's birthday.. So Janice, hubby and i will be having dinner at home and watching the tele with her tonight.. We do not care whether will Mr Lau be coming home early but Janice was nice enough to remind him about this last night.. I do not think that Janice hates him as much as i do because i know too many of his dirty secrets and how deep he has hurt my mom...After the other night, i thought my life at home will be very difficult because i need to hide such a stupid secret from her... But all thanks to hubby and Janice, i do not feel that stressed out at home... Whenever the 3 of us are together, we will joke and play around.. At least my mom will laugh along with us... Hubby and i have been making plans to move out actually, but we have to put it on hold because Janice will be going to National Service (NS) on the 29th March 2010 and will only be back 3 months later.. I am just worried about her being alone at home all day-since the bloody husband does not give a shit... I do not have these kind of worry before, so it's quite stressful.. I just need time to absorb it...
It has been very difficult to hubby too.. Because i have totally lost faith and trust on all the men in the world.... During work, i would just shout at someone (especially men) and gets really pissed off with anyone very quickly.... I really cannot find ways to channel this hate... Luckily hubby understands and has been right beside me along the way... I really do not know what to do without him... All i could hope for now is that hubby can proof to me that not all men are like my mom's useless husband...
The other reason why i could pull myself together it is because i have been getting a lot of support and advice from close friends.. Namely, Wen Lin, Esther, Miss Evon (my boss) and many, many more... Having support from just family members are not enough... Friends are also important in many ways.. Even though they cannot stop whatever that is happening, they could at least lend us a shoulder to cry on and to cheer us along the way... I am super thankful that i have them both... THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!!!
BUT since tonight's my mom's birthday, i will try my best not to think about him and focus on making her happy and as relax as possible..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!!!
